A Thousand words can not express how I feel...

I've had an interesting last few weeks. Emotional, nerve-wracking weeks. They have shown me things that I had never seen or, I admit, been willing to believe. This upsets me because this has broken, or maybe even destroyed, my faith in people. I've discovered that people can actually, quite physically break your heart in mer minutes. I hate that this has happened to me. I hate that because I have so much faith in people, and I always have, that someone has taken advantage of that. And do you know what's worse, that this came from family. How much more painful could that get?

Thinking about it now, I wonder how many people have taken advantage of me in this way. Because, if there are people out there that have hurt me, but in such a way to take advantage of this aspect of my nature, I just don't know how I feel about this.

I think, I'm mostly just mad, so mad. I just can't believe that people would abuse our relationship in that way. And then, what do I do when something like this happens? I know I'm angry. But also so upset and kind of resigned. Yes, resigned. To be honest, I was expecting this, dreading it, but expecting it. How depressing is that?